Frustration Fridays

That's what I'm calling Friday's from now on. Frustration Fridays. Frustration Friday's leave me Frazzled. I busted my ass at the gym this week. I went the full 6 days, I've been doing 60 minutes on the arc trainer, lifting weights, the whole nine yards. And I even accomplished my goal of no soda (perhaps the greatest miracle of all time). And the results of todays weigh in? 229.6. One measley pound.
I'm thinking this weeks focus has to be on eating habits. It's the only thing I haven't changed, and I left it alone for a reason. This is going to be the tough one. I like food. I eat when I'm upset. Lately, due to bff drama, I've been upset, and therefore pigging out. But I also don't think it's wise to just cut out everything unhealthy because, again, I'll be setting myself up for failure. That being said:
GOALS for week 3:
1) Continue with no soda. The temptation has gone down significantly over the past week, to the point where my cravings are incredibly bearable. Plus, I didn't lose my goal of 2 pounds. Therefore, no reward.
2) NO COOKIES. This is a problem for me. i like cookies a lot. and I work in an environment where i can have free cookies whenever I want. But maybe it'll be like the soda, and after this week I won't even want them anymore.
3) Gym 6 times a week, like usual. It's going to be more difficult, because I don't have the motivation from losing weight, but we have to do what we have to do.
If I meet these goals, hopefully I'll see some good results next friday. I think that losing weight is almost like math. Once you find the right formula, you're golden. But it's finding the right formula that's the ultimate challenge.

It's Valentine's day sunday. Last year, I had to work 3-close (which is 10 pm) because I was the only one who didn't request the night off. Read as: I was the only single person. This year, things have changed dramatically. I'm working 2-close. I've never actually been in a relationship for Valentine's day. FML. And unfortunately, it's one of those holiday's that isn't a lot of fun when you're single. Like Christmas, it sucks being single for Christmas too.

On a different note: last night I had a dream I wore a bikini. And I wasn't disgustingly fat in it. Ohhh, if only....

xoxo.

No Soda Maketh Me Drowsy

Good newssss. I haven't had soda since Thursday. Which means I've gone four days without it. I've mainly been drinking water. A glass of milk here and there. Tonight, I went for pizza with my friend and had fruit punch. She says that's just as bad as soda. I'm going to dissagree. Anyways, I've also gone to the gym every day. And I've been doing a full hour on the arc trainer, which results in burning about 850 calories. Then I like to do weights to cool down. It's a miracle I'm alive right now, I've been so busy. On the bright side, my morning class got cancelled for tomorrow, which means I might get to fit in two workouts! That is, if I decide to get my fat ass out of bed early. Not likely, but I'll try. I don't have class until 12:3o with the cancellation.
I'm feeling pretty good about myself now that I'm working out regularly. I always want to go weigh myself, but I'm making myself wait until Fridays, official weigh in days. It started out just because it was a Friday the first time I weighed myself, but it works well. Because I eat worse on the weekends, so I have more time to get back on track before the weekly moment of truth.

2 lbs down....a lot to go.

So, good news. I weighed myself today, a week after I first stepped on the scale, and I'm down to 230.8 lbs. I'm going to consider it a success since I've eaten like a pig a few days out of the week, and was unsuccessful at cutting out soda. I went to the gym Friday, Saturday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Today. And I went for about an hour and fifteen minutes each time. Had a really good workout today, there was this cute guy there on the bike next to me, then when I went to the arc trainer, he did too. If I wasn't feeling so fat today, I might have struck up a conversation. But I was feeling fat, so he had to make do with mutual awkward glances.
Goals for this week:
1)NO SODA- here's what I've decided. I'm going to cut out all soda for the next week, and see what it does. If it makes a difference, I might feel more motivated to make it a permanent thing. If I lose at least 2 pounds by next Friday, I'll let myself have one mountain dew. One. Good plan? I think so.
2) GYM 6 DAYS/WEEK- This is what I usually do. I just missed a day this week. I'm going to try to stay for an hour and a half each session. It's only adding 15 minutes to my norm, so it should be a reasonable goal.

These seem pretty good for one week, I don't want to go overboard, because it'll make me want to quit altogether. But if all goes well, next weeks goals should be more food oriented.
Yessss to weight loss!
xoxo

Mountain Dew and other things

So. The whole no soda resolution, not going so hot. I think I'm addicted to mountain dew. I'm always so tired in the mornings that after my first class I head to the vending machines to get one. I'm not much of a coffee drinker unless it's loaded with cream. Anyone know good alternatives to soda?
Anyways, I had one of the best workouts I've had in a while tonight. I missed two days in a row due to work and school, but tonight I made sure to get my ass thereee. And it turned out to be great. I started out doing the arc trainer for 45 minutes, which is a usual for me. What's not usual is for it to go by without desperately wanting to quit. It was great. New music always gets me through long, tedious workouts. Then, I did some weights for 20 minutes or so. Then I did 6 miles on the bike. Overall, I was there about an hour and a half and burned about 1,000 calories. It didn't hurt that "Robert Pattinson" was there tonight ;-) Hopefully the awesomeness of this workout will inspire me through my morning workout tomorrow. It's always difficult to get up at 8am when my first class isn't even until 11:30. But we gotta do what we gotta do.
My biggest inspiration for this is that hopefully, one day, I'll be able to go buy a bikini. I have NEVER gotten to buy one. Ever. And it would be so awesome to look decent in one. I love looking at them in stores, choosing the ones I'd buy if I had the right body. I'm hoping to kick it into high gear to be able to look decent in ANY swimsuit by summer.